My boyfriend is in the military and I’ve been with him since I was 20 years old, I’m 23 now. Being with someone in the service is hard. If you’ve never experienced it, you have no idea how lonely it is. He’s never home. I visit his family, but sometimes feel like they’re watching my every move, I hate it. I’ve been going out more lately so I don’t sit home and sulk. I ended up meeting a guy one night at my favorite bar. We became friends on Facebook and talk a lot. He’s really sweet and funny. He even took me out to dinner a few times, which was totally innocent, but I’m not gunna lie, it felt really good to be out on a “date.” The other night we all went out to see a band but I had to leave early, so this guy walked me out to my car. He leaned in and kissed me and I kissed him back…I had butterflies…it’s been so long since I felt that way because my bf’s not home to give me butterflies. I feel awful. How can I break up with my boyfriend who’s away fighting for our country. He waits for my letters, saying I’m getting him through the tough days. His family will hate me too for hurting him while he’s away. But, then I think, what if it’s not HIM I like, but, the attention…like I said, it’s lonely having your bf overseas.
Would it be that bad to just see if this goes anywhere, without breaking up with him, maybe I’ll just realize I really miss my bf. I’m really torn.